I practiced the silent meditation when everyone was asleep in the morning. I started meditating in my room, my own ‘fig tree’. While I was meditating, I kept my posture in a cross-legged form with my hands resting above my knees. There was nothing going on outside, because everyone was asleep. At first it was easy to concentrate because my room was silent. It felt as though my mind was like a black chalkboard. I could see nothing. I could only hear the sound of my steady breathing. After I started to hear the cars below on the streets, I honestly started to think of concentrating, 'Tetris', completing the online portfolio, my shoulders and back hurting, Hagwon, and homework. It was harder to clear my mind once something entered it. This was because one thought lead to another continuously. When my ‘fig tree’ had complete silence, I could keep my mind blank from the world. I was able to clear my mind. But as a distraction reached me I would immediately turn my attention or thoughts to that particular subject. The meditation itself inspired me to calm myself down, play ‘Tetris’, complete my MRE homework, and to concentrate on one thing at a time. I’m guessing I attained right thoughts because I didn’t think of negative things, but the things that helped me in life. Right concentration was with me only for the first half of the meditation. However, the meditation inspired me to stay focused and concentrated. While meditating I was able to be aware of what I heard, for example the environment around me and birds tweeting. I think I was able to get a little of the right mindfulness. It’s true that I was able to realize the right thoughts, mindfulness, and concentration. But even though I could empty my mind at one point I couldn’t do it so that I could seek life’s truth. My mind was empty but there was no life’s truth in it. Although meditation was a hard process, I do believe it helps you achieve right thoughts, mindfulness, and concentration.
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